Chapter 18

I acted normal.

Me: " Jeno shway wadeg 3alaich. "

Wahab laughed " Yala ok. "

Me: " Hala Ahmedo. "

Ahmed: " Minu kentay ga3da itkalmen? "

Me: " Jenno. "

Ahmed: " Mmm.. "

I wanted to start a conversation.

Me: " Way okhoha el9'3er zouqa! Tawa ga3adt akalma. "

Ahmed: " Ee wana agoul minu ga3da itkalem hathe. "

I laughed " Wala eshaweg. "

Ahmed: " Inzain entay sh7aga mu nayma? "

Me: " Ba3ed shwey banam "

Ahmed: " Inzain yala ana banam taben shey? "

Me: " Salamtik. "

Ahmed: " Allah isalmech. "

And he went to his room.

I texted Wahab " I was about to get caught. "

Wahab: " La7atht. Call? "

" La magder " I replied

Wahab: " Laish? Ma nam ekhouch? "

" Embala, bes male khelg suwalif. Wala 7ade mu metrag3a! " I said

Wahab: " Mu metrag3a? Shloun? 9ayer shey? "

Me: " La mu 9ayer shey. "

Wahab: " Akeed? "

Me: " Ee wala, bes ye3ni kelshay ga3ed i9er wara ba3ath. Khaled, Jenna, o elyoum ekhouy. "

Wahab: " Wai3 Khaled. "

Me: " Uff. "

Wahab: " Ma sawa shey ba3ad? "

Me: " La'. "

I lied, I didn't want to tell him that he came to my door and he pretened to be A in pretty little liars, jed yahel. A9lan he's not worth talking about!

Me: " Wahabi yala ana banam al7een. "

Wahab: " Okay 7abebe, tgha6ay 3adel ou awal ma itgomen kalmeny. "

Me: " Inshalah, wenta ba3ad la t6awel. "

Wahab: " Al7en banam, etha entay ma ga3adtay shelfayda ag3ad ana? "

Me: " I love you! "

Wahab: " Amout 3alaich walah. "

I slept and woke up around 7:45 I was late for school!

Fay: " Entay wainech mn ziman 3anich, I miss you! "

Me: " Chub awel ams shayfetich. "

Fay: " Malat 3alaych mu kafu elwa7ed egoulech kalam 7elu. "

Me: " Hahahaha. "

Fay: " Lwailo, I want to talk to you about something! "

Me: " Sheno shfech? "

Fay: " Akhaf agoulech. "

Me: " Chub Fay, men meta etkhafen etgoleli "

Fay: " Mm, ams kent eb Jlai3a. "

Me: " Adry. "

Fay: " Oo.. "

Me: " Oo? Fay ta7achay khara3teny! "

Fay: " Okay okay bat7acha lat3a9been, eb Jlai3a kan fe yam3a kel our family ou fe wa7ed i9erli men b3eed 7ail 7ail ya3ni his father metzawij second cousin my mother! "

Me: " Okay.... ? "

Fay: " He's cute, 3umra 19. "

Me: " Fay ana as7ab menich kelma kelma? Ta7achay 3adil goulay ele 3endich. "

Fay: " Okay, we talked. Temashaina 3alba7ar o he followed me eb twitter! O now ensolef DM's he's so sweet to me. "

Me: " Fay latgolen 7abaiteh? "

Fay: " Kind of. "

Me: " Ambayh mu men 9ejich! 3arafteh 9arlech youm wa7ed o 7abaiteh? Ma tadren yemken he's a player, yemken ye3tberech methel ekhta! Lat9eren ma6youra o theglay, la tsolfen dm's wayed weyah! Mala da3y kelish et3algain feh ou entay ma tadren sheno mayta! "

Fay: " Lulu men 9ejich 3a9abtay 3ashan chethe? Ye3ni entay ma3a Wahab 3ady 9a7? You met him wentay ma tadren sheno mayta! O be3dain he's one of Wahab's friends! "

Me: " Wahab is my friend's brother! O I spended taqreban a month with him, ta3araft 3alaih! Be3dain everyone knows ena Wahab khoush wa7ed! O shdarach ena he's one of Wahab's friends? "

Fay: " Nefs elshay Lulu nefs elshay! I saw Wahab ib his followers! "

Me: " Shesma? "

Fay: " 7amani. "

Me: " Kaifich Lulu ana 7athartich! Etha ta3alagtay feeh o ohwa 6ala3 player mu etyeli tabcheen! Ana geltlich take care ya Fay take care. "

Fay: " Lulu la t7aten I'm a big girl, 3arfa shga3da asawy la t7ateen! "

Me: " Kaifich, bes ana ma an9e7ich kelish! Entay 3abalech ena ana mestansa laish ene akalem? Walah el3atheem everynight before I go to bed ag3ad afaker! Thamere ga3ed e2anebny! Ga3da achatheb 3ala ome o uboy o ekhoy, o ana taghayart wayed! Wala kelish mu merta7a men elfekra! "

Fay: " 3ayal hedeeh! "

" Yanaitay Fay? " I said

Fay: " Laish? "

Dalal interrupted us " Entaw wainkom 3any? "

I hugged her " Dalouuul! I miss you "

Dalal: " Wala chathaba 9arlech fatra ma tadren 3any shda3wa! "

" Business woman " I replied

Dalal: " Smela 3alaikom, wala shakla warakom mu9eeba! "

I laughed.

I didn't want to tell her, Dalal kelish mu no3ha chethe! She's not open-minded eb hal suwalif, 3endaha ena ele ekalmon bitches o kelhom ray7en feeha! Well ana kan 3abale chethe, bes now te'3ayerat nathreti 7ag'hum.. Ye3ni 3araft exactly shenu shu3oorhom!

I went back home, I ate lunch with my family and I went upstairs!

Wahab called me.

Wahab: " Lulu betrou7en shalaih this weekend? "

Me: " I don't think so. "

Wahab: " Laish? "

Me: " Madry. "

Wahab: " Inzain abe ashofich? "

Me: " Lama arou7 elshalaih. "

Wahab: " Meta betrou7en elshalaih? "

Me: " Madry wallah. "

Wahab: " Inzain khal ne6la3? "

Me: " Shloun ne6la3 jedam elnas? "

Wahab laughed " La mu jedam elnas, entay tro7en mukan ou ana ayelich. "

Me: " Ee ye3ni jedam elnas? "

Wahab:  "La la, etyen ma3ay elsayara! "

Me: " Sayara? No no no! La' Wahab la' "

Wahab: " Shbasawy fech ye3ni?  Bes eb neg3ad ensolef. "

Me: " La Wahab sorry mabi! "

Wahab: " Abe mara agolech shay witgolele eeh, kela me3tartha kela mu 3ajbech! Laish chethe entay? Mara7 asawelich shey walah bes bag3ad o basolef weyach! 7aram 3alaich Lulu!!!! "

Me: " Wahab wala mu 3an, bes ana akhaf! "

Wahab: " Tkhafen men shenu? "

He was really mad.

Me: " La t3a9eeb 3alaaaay! "

He calmed down.

Wahab: " I'm sorry. Khayfa mn sheno? "

Me: " I don't know, wala bes chethe khayfa! "

Wahab: " La tkhafen 3alashany! Walah el3atheem bes basolef weyaach! "

Me: " Madry Wahab.. Ashouf ashouf! "

Wahab: " This thursday? "

Me: " Yemken. "

Wahab: " Pinkberry Jabriya? "

Me: " Mmm. "

Wahab: " AKHH!! Can't wait. "

Me: " Ma geltlik bayey akeed. "

Wahab: " Men 9otich ebayen enech betyeen! "

I laughed " Wala madri. "

Wahab: " Lulu 7abebe ana banzil ta7at yaboni, atfaham weyach ba3dain. "

Me: " Okay. Bye "

Wahab: " Bes bye? "

Me: " Ee shtaby ba3ad? "

Wahab: " Waay! Malat 3alaych ta3alemay elkalam el7elu. "

I laughed " Bye Wahab. "

He laughed too. " Bye "

Chapter 17

I think it was convincing.

Jenna: " Lulu can you come over to my house tomorrow? "

Bes? Hatha eli gdarat itgoula?

Lulu: " Enshalah ashouf. "

Jenna: " Please try your best to come, we have to discuss this face to face! Ma yenfa3 BBM kelish, and Wahab will be there too. I want to hear this from both of you! "

Even though she's younger than me in years, she's wise. She knows how to deal with things!
I've always loved Jenna, she's honest! Mat7eb etkhesh shay eb galbha, ele eb galbha 3ala lsanha! Ya bakht ele byakheth'ha.

It's almost 4 am. I tried to get some sleep but I couldn't, I was thinking about tomorrow, shloun bawajeha? I've never been so ashamed. 3aib ele sawaita, the whole thing.


Me and Wahab together.


Going to his chalet while Jenna isn't there.


The way she found out.


It's embarrassing.


I slept at 6 am! And I woke up around 12 pm. I wore a training suit, got my hair into a messy bun, put on some make up, I went downstairs to tell my mother that I'll go to study at Jenna's.

I lied, bes male khelg investigations!

Mama: " Lulu 7abebty sit down shway, I want to talk to you about something. "

This ain't good.

I sat down, I was really nervous.

Me: "  What? "

Mama: " 7abebte ana umich, you have to tell me the truth! "

Ashkara she found out!

Me: " Sure, entay t3arfene ana machatheb 3alaich "

She smiled. " 7abebte Ahmed, your father and la7athna enech mitghayra wayed hal fatra and we've been discussing this yesterday! 7atan 5alatich la7ethaw, egolon shda3wa Lulu kel weekend shalaih sh3endaha ma gamat itzorna wela shay. 7abebty is it about Mesk? Emsawyatlech shey? Tell me. "

" La walla yuma mafene shey, bes I'm stressed from school. 9ayra hal ayam ma anam 3adel o I don't eat well! I don't know why nefseti masdouda o maly 5elg shay! Elmadrisa wayed tha'36a 3alaina! " I replied.

I don't how did I come up with that, bes I think she believed it!

Mama: " Ashwa 5ara3tena 3abaly feech shay! You have to eat/sleep well! And focus on your study! Ma7ad befedich '3air derastech, la7ga 3ala elrabe3 wel6al3at welyam3at! "

Me: " Inshalah mama. " I kissed her forehead and I left the house.

I reached Jenna's house in 10 minutes. I called her and told her that I was outside. We sat in the garden, ma 7a6ayt 3aine eb 3ainha! We waited for Wahab to come. Ana oo Jenna kena sakten 6oul elwagt, o ana emnazla rasy bel arth! It was really awkward. Wahab showed up.

Wahab: " Ilsalam. "

We replied "  Wa3alaikom elsalam. "

He sat next to Jenna, infront of me.

Jenna: " So, gololi sh9ar belthab6. I want to understand the whole story! "

Wahab told her everything!

He told her that I rejected him, that he was broken when I rejected him. Jenna seemed convinced.

Jenna: " Inzain o laysh ma geltoli min ziman? "

Wahab: " Lulu ma kanat tabe etgolech al7en, she was scared. "

Jenna: " Scared of what? For god's seak Lulu I'm younger than you! "

Me: " Wala Jenna a7esich kubry oo akbar mene, I don't care. Age is just a number, meftashla menich! Thats low walah. I mean me and your brother! Wala lo wa7da etsawe fene chethe chan sawait azyad! Bes walah you're such an amazing person! You know how to take care of things. "

Jenna blushed "  Mashkoura wayed, wala you're amazing too! " she looked at Wahab " Bes khala9 I want to spend some time with my friend. "

I laughed.

Wahab: " Mashy mashy wala a3alemkum. A9lan ana raye7 elduwaneya. "

Jenna: " Matshouf shar. "

Wahab: " Lulu taben shay? "

" Salamtek " I replied

Wahab: " Yala elsalam. " and he left.

Jenna: " Lulu if you need anything I'm here, ye3ni itha sawalich ay shay please la test7en goleli! Men kalam Wahab shakla 7ayl e7ebech w alah yarzigkom 3ala neyatkom. "

Me: " Mashkura wala matga9ren. "

We changed the subject, we talked about random things. 6ab3an I told her about Khaled o krehta!

I went back home 3al 8. Ga3adt with my family lama elsa3a 10 3ashan maygolon fene shay, I acted normal.

Lama 9a3adt foug Wahab told me that he wants to call me.

I took a walk around the house. Ome nayma as usual, oboy nayem ba3ed and Ahmed mu belbait.

He called me.

Wahab: " Aloooooo "

Me: " Aloo "

Wahab: " Hala 7ayate "

Me: " Hala feek "

Wahab: " Shlounech? "

Me: " Zaina, wenta? "

Wahab: " Fe a7ad yesma3 hal9out o may9er zain? "

I laughed, my face turned red.

How many times do I have to say this? I'M NOT USED TO HAL KALAAAAM x_x

Wahab: " Looli 7abebe? "

Me: " Mmm? "

Wahab: " A7ebich "

Me: " Ana ba3ad. "

Wahab: " A7ebich a7ebich a7ebich a7ebich! Mission #1 accomplished. "

Me: " Ana ba3ad, shenu mission #1? "

Wahab: " Jenna ekhte, we have to wait few more years o enkhale9 men el3alam kela and we get married and we fly away! "

I laughed " Maynouuun. "

I was talking loudly, bedoun la a7es! Eshta6ait bel suwalif.

" Lulu minu ga3da etkalmen? " I turned around wela Ahmed was standing yam elbab.

SERIOUSLY.... SHGA3ID I9ER?

Chapter 16

....: " INTAW SHGA3DEN ETSAWON? "

I turned around, It was Jenna. Chena 6rag 3ala wayhe walah!

Wahab: " Jenna I can explain! "

Me: " Jenna! "

Jenna: " Explain what? I saw what you guys were doing b3youni! "

She was angry. Like REALLY angry!

Me: " Jenna walah fahma '3ala6 entay! "

Jenna: " Lulu shenu ele fahmeta '3ala6? Entay oo my brother? La ou ib my living room? Ouch. Kelesh ma tewa8a3t'ha menich. "

" JENNA! " I said.

Jenna: " Lulu please male khelg atna8ash weyach al7en, I don't want to ruin my mood 3ashankum entaw! Ma tistahlon walah. " 

And she went downstairs.

Me: " Kela menek Wahab! I told you ena elfekra '3ala6! I shouldn't be seeing you in your house! A9lan ma kan la da3y netna8as here at all! "

Wahab: " La t7aten, bet6e5 Lulu walah bet6e5! "

Me: " Barid elbait! "

And I called the driver, he was waiting infront of the house, I left without saying goodbye. When I entered the house and found my mother with 3amete um Khaled. Salamt 3alayhum!

3amete: " Hala eb murt wildy Khaloudi. "

Very funny. I'm so not in  the fucking mood for this bullshit. Male khelgich entay oo weldich ets'3farallah!

My mother: " We ya 7elohom ma3a ba3ath. " 

I smiled. 

My mother: " Lulu chenich rada embacher? "

Me: " Ee ta3abt. "

My mother: " Khobre feech emoten 3ala elrag9 oo el7aflat rada 9:00 shel6ary! "

Me: " Ee geltlich ta3abt. "

My mother: " Eeh. "

I went upstairs, I took a shower. I cried a little bit, a7es'ha 7oubat Khaled. This can't be happening! I expected a better reaction from Jenna, ye3ni madri I thought she would be happy if she found out that me and her brother are in love, bes yemken 3ashan the way she found out? Who knows bes I will talk to her at night to explain everything to her! O etha ehya ma rethat o still ma same7atny I'm going to leave Wahab! I know that this sounds stupid bes ye3ni she's in my school o ilwath3 ra7 ekon awkward! Awel ana o Jenna kel ma nshof ba3ath etye etlemne o en6eg ba3ath oo meyana wayed! Bes now shbegolon? Akeed Lulu o Jenna met'hawshen. What if they asked us why? Shbengol? 3ashan I had a relationship with her brother? Ana shbt9er sum3ete. God!

I got a text from an unknown number. 

" I'm waiting for you at the basement. - A "

I replied " Aah mashrou3 Pretty Little Liars?:) "

5 minutes later. " Don't make me come upstairs. - A "

I replied " La tekfa come. "

1 minute later. " If you insist. - A "

I changed into my PJ's and laid on my bed.

I texted Jenna " 3ugib ma tkhal9en we need to talk. Please! "

Someone knocked my door.

Me: " MINU? "

Wela fe someone whispering in a scary voice " Open the door. "

Me: " Who's this? Ela lama itgole minu? "

" La t5leny akser elbab. " He replied

Me: " Walain, bitgoul minu wela shloun? "

" Ba6lay oo bet3arfen. " He said.

Me: " I'm not going to open the door. Yala banam! "

" Lulu, ana Khaled open the door. " He said.

Me: "  KHALED? Ent ma tets7y 3ala wayhek? Yay lamen my door? "

Khaled: " Ee ba6leeh abe akalmech! "

Me: " Ma abi akalmek! Rou7, walah el3athem I'll call Ahmed etha ma re7t wallah! "

Khaled: " LULU LA TYANENENI! Kho geltlich bas bakalmech, mara7 aklech. "

Me: " I don't want to talk to you, gha9eb? GO AWAY! "

Khaled: " Khara feech Lulu open the door la o 8asaman belah aksera. "

Me: " Eksera wakser rasik warah. "

I don't know shlon gelt chethe.

Khaled: " NA3AM? "

He knocked the door eb 9ot 8awi!

Khaled:  " SHGELTAY? "

Me: " Sima3tny, Khaled walah el3athem I'll call Ahmed now wallah. "

Khaled: " Ma tsawenha! "

Me: " Watch me. "

Sawayt ro7e ga3da adeg 3ala Ahmed oo 7a6aita on speaker 3ashan ysma3 ena elmobile ga3ed eren!

Bes I called my other mobile.

Khaled: " LULU SIDEEH WALAH BARO7 KHALA9! "

Me: " Matshouf shar zain! "

O ra7, since I met Wahab everything is getting worse. Ahmed doesn't trust me like he used to, Khaled ele 6ale3ly eb kel mukan, and now Jenna. This is a nightmare! I fell asleep and woke up around 1 am. I checked my bbm to see if Jenna replied or no.

Jenna: " Talk about what Lulu? About what?:) I thought you were different, leana wala wa7da men my friends rafejatny 3ashany ana, kelhum 3ashan my handsome brother! Bes 6ala3tay nafs'hum lelasaf:) "

I didn't know what to say. I texted Wahab about what Jenna told me.

Wahab: " Call me. "

Me: " Enta maynon? Wahab mu wagta!! "

Wahab: " LULU ENTAY KELSHAY MO WAGTA? 3AYAL META WAGTA? ETHA MA DAGAIT 3ALAICH IL7EN META BADIG BALAAH? "

Me: " Wahab shouf elsa3a cham, o ba3dain etha sma3atna? "

Wahab: " Mara7 tesma3, my room b3eda 3an hers o etha taben anzil el7ade8a ta7at. "

Me: " Okay. "

I was really scared, I took a walk around the house to see if anyone was awake, my mother is sleeping! My father and my brother bel dewaneya. Thank god!

I called him.

Me: " Alo. "

Wahab: " Hala Lulu. "

His voice kan chena 9out wa7ed mu m9adeg. I LOVE HIM! No words can describe shkether.. I REALLY DO!!!!!!

Me: " So..? "

Wahab: "  Golelaha kelshay 9ar baina, golelaha ena ana ele kent abech o ana ba3ed bakalemha bacher. "

Me: " Kelshay? 7ata salfat ena I... "

Wahab: "  Rejected me? Eeh golelaha kelshay, o ana bafahemha ba3ed! "

Me: " Okay. Yala bye! "

Wahab: " La7tha Lulu.. "

Me: " Hmm? "

Wahab: "  3ash men sima3 hal9out. "

I smiled " 3ashat ayamek. "

O sadaita.

I pinged Jenna.

Jenna: " Na3am? "

Me: " Jenna, I swear to god ene ma rafajtech 3ashan Wahab, a9lan I didn't know ena he's your brother ela gabel fatra! O be3dain we're friends since forever, o the whole thing kan 9idfa! I met him eb ra7al, be3dain he helped us bel jet-ski gumna enro7 shalaihkom o he fell for me, it was out of my hand, Jenna ma kan elmawthou3 bedy! I know what we were doing in your living room was wrong, bes ma kena ga3den ensawy shay he held my hand o zafaita, o entay 3abalech ena ana cheap laish I'm in a relationship with your brother, tara walah el3athem I'm not satisfied at all! Awal mara gali I rejected him, I didn't want to! O thany mara ma gedart Jenna, I can't reject the person I love martain! Jenna entay tadren ana shkether a7ebech o mu 8a9di asawe hal 7araka, I'm not like the others, ana ma rafajtech 3ashan ukhoch. Ask Wahab! Uhwa begolech kelshay, ask Fay she knows everything! Jenna walah el3athem ala ya3lam shkether ana a7ebech o ala ya3lam ana shenu neyeti! I'm sorry for not telling you this, I'm really sorry Jenna! Kent mesta7ya agolech, o the way you found out kanat etfashel! Walah el3athem karaht nafsi Jenna, please 7e6ay nefsich mukani. Try to understand! "

Chapter 15

Me: Wahab wain tabene a93ad?
Wahab: Lulu, 9i3day abe akalmech!
Me: Wahab min 9ejek?
Wahab: Eeh min 9ijy, 9e3day!
Me: Fashla enshalah ma a93adlek ya3ne.
Wahab: Ana adalech ghurfety!
Me: Ba3ad? Ghurfetek? Ghal6an Wahab!
Wahab: Lulu walah mara7 asawe shay bes abe akalmech walah!
Me: Enta shaklek mo mestaw3eb shenu ya3ne ana 9a3da ghurfetek oo akalmek, oo lo Jenna etshouf?
Wahab: Mara7 tadre 3anech Jenna, malech sheghel ana mthabe6 kelshay!
Me: Efreth omek o obok faj2a dashaw 3alaina? Ana shbekon maw8ifi?
Wahab: La tkhafen ma7ad beyey il7een! Yala Lulu 9e3day!
I took a deep breath, I was scared. REALLY scared! I didn't know what to do. Should I go up there?
Me: Madri Wahab.
Wahab: Yala Lulu, yala 7abebe 9e3day bes shway! Mara7 neg3ad eb gherfete, ra7 neg3ad bel9ala awal ma a7ad eyey seda nezlay! Oo don't worry ma7ad beyey, bes in case ye3ne.
Me: Okay.
I decided to go, I know its wrong. Its completely wrong, but we're going to talk only. That's it! Oo mara7 a6awel! Only five minutes!
I went to Jenna.
Me: Jenna, I need to go to the bathroom!
Jenna: Taben etrou7en ele foug wela menne?
Me: Eli foug chena a7san, bakheth ra7ty!!
Jenna: Okay, rou7ay foug awal ghurfa 3alyemen dishay oo eb telgain the bathroom! La t6awlen!
Me: Okay.
My heart started beating so fast, I even started sweating!
Awal ma 9a3adt I found Wahab waiting for me, ga3ed bel9ala labes his beige short and a navy tshirt o emsawe sha3ra slick lai wara, lama shafny he stood up, kan mtani7! I wanted to say something gabel la a5aly elwath3 awkward!
Me: So what do you want to talk to me about?
Wahab: Ha?
Me: Wahaaaaab!
Wahab: Hmm!
O ohwa emtani7!
Me: Wahaab tara anzil walaah!
He held my hand " Mara7 akhalech etrou7en mukan! "
I face turned red " Wahaaaab! "
Wahab: Yalah yala ta3alay neg3ad let's talk!
Me: Yalah.
Wahab: Mafeha shay etha dagait 3alaich oo solafna tara.
Me: Embala feha ashya2.
Wahab: Sheno feha?
Me: Madri.
Wahab: At least akalmech mara kel two days. Please Lulu!
Me: Madri.
Wahab: Stop saying madri, abe akalmech bas shway! Walah bas asolef weyach, may9er kela elwath3 BBM lai meta.
Me: Khala9 okay.
Wahab: Rethaitay?
Me: Ee yala bes banzil!
Wahab: Itgolen chethe 3ashan etsakteny ha?
Me: La' wallah la'!
Wahab: Inzain Lulu. He came closer and whispered " A7ebich ".
Me: Wahab..
Wahab: 3youn Wahab?
Me: Lazim anzil! Wahab: 9arlech sina itgolen banzil oo ma nizaltay, entay taben teg3iden weyay 9a7?
Me: Shaku shal the8a!
Kel ma he comes closer ana aba3ed.
Wahab: Shfeeech mara7 aklech!
I giggled.
Wahab: Ta3alay bashoufich 3adil!
Me: Ka ga3ed itshofny!
Wahab: La bashofch 3adil 3adil.
I laughed " O ka enta ga3ed etshofny 3adel 3adel. "
Wahab: Nathary th3eeef. And he gave me that puppy face.
Me: Maku.
He came closer, I felt so weak. I don't want to push him away, his face kan sooo close to my face. He smiled! I was scared.
Wahab whispered: 3a6ene raqmich.
Me: Ha?
Wahab: Raqmich!
I gave him my number.
Wahab: Shofay shsamaitich.
Ketab ismi eb his mobile " My one And only ;* "
I smiled.
He called me, I picked it up.
Wahab: Alooooo
I laughed.
Wahab: 7ayati entay!
Sadaita.
He laughed, he held my hand again o sa7abni 3enda!
Faj'a ... We heard a voice. " ENTAW SHGA3DEN ETSAWOON? "

Chapter 14

i woke up the next day, went to school as usual. when i came back jenna texted me that she's throwing a dj party next week, geltlaha i'll try my best to come. i told wahab about the party. wahab: so betyen? me: madri. wahab: ta3alay! me: oo laish enta 3abalek enek betshofny? wahab: eeh. laish la! me: inshala matshofny eb hdom 7afla! wahab: i already saw you ib hdom ba7ar o its the same ta8reban. umm, 9a7. bas haman party a7es '3air! the party is on thursday! i told wahab ena mu aked arou7. i decided to go to the avenues to find me a dress, i texted wahab geltla ena barou7 avenues 3ashan maysaweli salfa nefa hathek elmara. wahab: tc 7abebe;* awal ma to9len golele! weya minu ray7a? me: inshalah i will;* bro7y. wahab: chan gelteli ayey weyach:(? me: ta3aaaal! 9ayra ma acha3ma 3ala hal suwalif, ana men nefsi a7es eni aby! bes haman 3aib! wahab: 9ij walah? ayye o asaweha walah! me: you're crazy! etha shafona elnas wiya ba3ath shbegolon? wahab: 3ady 5o ana 6ale3 with my future wife, mu a7ad '3areb! aww!!! me: i love you! wahab: i adore you!! entay shemsawya feny? me: hmm shemsawya? x_x wahab: ela golay sheno mo msawya! emyanenatny!! walah a7ebich ya bent elnas a7ebich! " ana akthar " i replied wahab: so, 6alabtich? me: shino? wahab: awal golay 3a6aitek! me: ya3ne ana ma adri ent sheno tabe, fa 3ala 7asab! wahab: lulu aby asma3 9otich:( me: wahab, how many times do i have to discuss this with you? i told you la! wahab: adre lulu, bas lai meta ya3ne? me: madry! please wahab la tnarfizny! wahab: alah!! al7en etha 9irt basma3 9otich anarfiz? me: ma abi calls o hal kharabe6! wahab: ay kharabe6? intay 7a6a eb balich ena i'm playing 9a7? me: wahab shaku! la tgawelni kalam ma gelta! wahab: bes hatha ele fahamta men kalamech! me: la tfaser kelshay 3ala kaifik, i never said that you're a player!! wahab: ee bes ele yesma3 ele ga3da itgolena befaker chethe! me: khala9 wahab ent el7achy weyak thaye3! saker elsalfa! wahab: ok :D we ended the conversation that way. i bought a glitter dress, o elchem 9ob elsholders mertefe3! it was a black dress. i went back home told fay about our first fight. fay: waaaayh! ma shftay shay btet'hawishon akther men chethe, khaleeh o bekalmech! me: ya3ne elwath3 kela hoshat be9er? fay: eeh! yal maynona a7la! me: a7la b3ainech! and ae continued talking about random stuff. i waited for wahab to text me.. but he didn't! 7alaft ina i won't text him. days passed, he didn't text me at all. it kinda hirts, lana what happened was over a stupid fight! i miss him, mzaje t3akar! ya3ne he can live without me! maybe i should break up with him? lana lo he cares chan kalamny! mu 3 days mayadre 3ani!! i decided to go to jenna's party 3nad 3alaih, i don't know why but i felt like going. i wore the dress that i bought, with black high heels. sawait sha3re slick pony-tail. applied some makeup and a red lipstick! i went to the party without telling him! when i got there kelmen gal 3an shakly eshaweg. i was flattered in my imagination kela 3ala baly now wahab beydish belghala6 o beshofny. i told the girls ena nabi n9awer 3ashan aby a7e6 dp! wahab saw the dp and he commented immediately : at the party? me: shrayek? wahab: 7achene 3adel.. o ba3dain laish ma gelteli? me: adish agolek ana ray7a elparty faj'a oo enta mu mmalemny 9arlek three days yemken? wahab: lulu, come upstairs:)

Chapter 13

So I went back to our chalet, I slept 3ala 6oul and I woke up around 10 am.

Nizalt ta7at ou I found Mesk ga3da, re7na shalaihom ou ga3adna ensolef.

Me: " Mesk abe arou7 el7amam, digega warid. "

Mesk: " Okay. "

I went to the bathroom and I realized that I forgot my mobile at Mesk's chalet. Its okay ye3ni shbetsawy eb mobiley?

Did I lock my phone?

La, fe auto-lock yagfel ebrou7a. Bes after 2 minutes!

I went back to Mesk's chalet.

Mesk: " Lulu? "

My heart skipped a beat. " Hmm? " I replied

Mesk: " Entay o Wahab? Men meta? "

SHIT!!!!!

Shal legafa ele feha? Ehya shako? Malha 7ag teg3ad etshouf my mobile, lo ehya 7a6a her mobile lo enshala eb 7athny ma arou7 o at3abath!

Me: " Sheno? "

Mesk: " Entay men meta etkalmen Wahab? "

Me: " Taqreban one week. "

Mesk: " And why didn't you tell me? 7mara!! "

Me: " Madri. "

Mesk: " Way CUTE!! How did this happen? "

I was kinda shocked men her reaction. Ye3ni madri ena she's open-minded!

I told her the story from A to Z.

Mesk: " OH MY GOD!! Shakla 7ada emout 3alaich, why did you reject him awal shey? "

Me: " I told you, kent khayfa sum3ety ou chethy. "

Mesk: " 7mara! Al7en etha 9ar ayshay etyen itgolele fahma? "

Me: " Okay! Bes Mesk please don't tell anyone, specially Fara7. "

Mesk: " Akeed mara7 agoul la t7aten. "

Me: " Thank you! "

Mesk: " Ma baina. Ou etha taben asa3dich lamen etshoufena belshalaih aw bara elshalaih 3ady. "

Me: " Bara elshalaih? "

Mesk: " Ya3ni bet'thlen etshoufena 6oul 3umrich belshalaih? Aked bet6l3en weyah, trou7en sayara weyah! "

Me: " SAYARA BA3AD? La yuba. "

Mesk: " Wala el3athem ya 7mara 3abalech bethel 6ol 3umra chethe weyach? Aked eb te6l3en weyah ou e9er bainkum calls ou kelshay. "

Me: " Shaku I already discussed this with Wahab and he agreed. "

Mesk: " Okay, bes lel9aber 7edoud. Aked ra7 e9er feeh I want to call her, I want to hear her voice. "

Me: " Wai3 la shaku. "

Mesk: " Betshoufen ou t'thakeray kalamy. Ou if you need any help I'm here for you! "

Me: " Iff la etkhar3eny! Inshalah. "

Mesk: " Abay brou7a Khaloud shak 3ad! "

Me: " Ee uff emkhare3ny! "

Mesk: " Tara el9bayan e7ison, they know everything "

Me: " Wai3. "

Mesk: " Lo gaylatli men ziman chan 3araft shlon a9ef eb your side, bes entay 7mara! "

Me: " Kent khayfa agoulech "

Mesk: " Why? "

Me: " Ye3ni madre. "

And we continued talking, 3ala elsa3a 4:45 7idart!

Wi9alt ta8reban at 6, took a shower. Ga3adt weya ome shwaya, I ate dinner. Chatted with Wahab and I slept.

School day passed regularly, bes a7es nefsi bitch. I don't know why, ye3ni they tell me everything * my friends * every single detail of their lifes, and now I'm hiding a big secret! A7es madry, bes I don't want to tell them.

I went back home, Ahmed wants to go out with me. Egouli mn zman ma 6ela3na weya ba3ath, CUTE!

We went to avenues around 6, I wore a black dress with brown Hermes belt with high heels, I applied some make up.

Ga3adna eb chocolate bar.

Ga3adna ensolef!

Ahmed: " Lulu, shfeh hatha ekhiz? Et3arfena? "

I turned around wela its Wahab.

" La ma3arfa. Bes yeshbah ekho refejti " I replied

" Akeed? " He asked.

" Ahmed shfeek 3alay? Le hal daraja athar 3alaik kalam Khaled? 9ayer etshek feny wayed! Mu watheq feney? " I said.

Ahmed: " Lulu wala mu 3an shey, bes ma sheftay shlon ga3ed ekhizich! "

Me: " Wala 7asafa ga9 3alaik hal 7a8eer! "

Ahmed: " I'm sorry Lulu wala I'm sorry, bes entay ekhti ou akeed bakhaf 3alaich ou elshay6an ma mat lail7en ewaswis 3ala elensan ou yemken wa7ed men 3yal el7aram ga9 3alaich wala I trust you, wentay tadren shkether a7ebich! "

Me: " Ee 9a7. "

Ahmed: " Ou deray balech men elbanat el7en ekhar3on akther men elshabab ou kelhum ekalmon. "

Me: " Enshalah, ee 7ada. Bes Ahmed wala ana makalem! "

Ahmed: " Entay GHAAAAAAAIR! Ghair ghair ghair ghair 3anhum kelhum! "

I smiled, thamery ga3id e2anebny!

We continued talking about random stuff. We went back home 3al 10.

I started chatting with Wahab.

Wahab: " Lulu, ana ga3ed asolef weyach 24/7 laysh ma gelteli enich eb Avenues? "

Me: " Madry, ye3ni 3adi. "

Wahab: " Shenu 3ady? "

Me: " Madri. "

Wahab: " Lulu cham mara agolech kel ma tsawen shay gouleli, lema te6l3en kelshay kelshay! 3ashan et3awdain lama netzawaj matkhshen 3any shey! "

Me: " Inshala walah I'm sorry akher mara! Ra7 agolek kelshay awel eb awel, bes wala I'm not used to tell anybody wain ray7a o wain yaya! "

Wahab: " Et3awdain. "

Me: " Enshalah. "

Wahab: " Lulu? "

Me: " Hala? "

Wahab: " A7ebich;* "

My heart smiled.

" AMOUT FEEK! " ..

Chapter 12

I woke up around 3 pm, I called Fay and told her everything from A to Z. She was so shocked, she was happy for me, on the other hand there's something inside my head that keeps telling me that what I'm doing is completely wrong and I'll regret this. Well, I know it's wrong but what can I do? I really love Wahab and I don't want to risk losing him again. Bad thoughts didn't stop crossing my mind, estaghfart raby ou ti3awatht men ebles and I prayed el3a9er, after that I changed to my A&F baby pink training ou sawait sha3re kouba, I applied some make up and I went downstairs to meet up with the girls.

Mesk: " Hala walah hala bl zayn kelah. "

I hugged her  " Ahlain. "

Mesk whispered " Ha shlounech al7en? "

Me: " So much better, thank you! "

Fara7: " Ha 9ayren 7abayeb 3ishtaw. "

I hate Fara7, I really do! I don't know why. I used to hate Mesk too, but after what she did yesterday 7abait'ha wayed.

Mesk: " Me7tara 7adech. "

I laughed.

Fara7: " Madry a7tar 3ala shinu 3ad. "

Mesk: " 7a9elich 3ad Lulu. "

" Hahah 7abebty. " I said

Fara7: " Enzain chabaw chabaw shway, ela Lulu wain rifejtich Fay? "

Me: " Ma tegdar etye, 3endaha 3ers. "

Fara7: " Aha okay, ela bagoul Khaloud shfeh em3a9eb 3alaich? "

Me: " Walain, this guy doesn't know how to keep his mouth shut. "

Fara7 laughed " La 7aram 3alaych wala ma gal shay, bes ana 7asait ena feeh shay le2ana he smoked 3 packs of cigarettes wara ba3ath, re7t kalamta chan egoul ena met'hawesh weyach. "
Me: " Oh, ou shgal ba3ad? "

Fara7: "  Madri, gali ask her when she wakes up. "

Me: " Maku shay, salfa sakhefa. "

Fara7: " Lulu entay tadren ena uhwa ey7bech 9a7? "

Me: " Well.. "

She interrupted " I know enech tadren, 7aram 3alaych wala el9bay sharech ou 7ail emout 3alaych la takhserena Lulu, you'll never find someone who loves you like Khaled, uhwa i7ebich since you guys were kids. Ou he's planning to marry you ye3ni! "

" Fara7, ana ma gelt shay 3an Khaled bes ana ma a7eba methel ma uhwa ey7bny. I don't want to marry a7ad i9erli, aby atzawaj wa7ed bara el3ayla. " I replied

Fara7: " Aah entay shaklech shayfatlech shoufa ha? "

Me: " SHAKU! Bes I don't want to marry wa7ed ma a7eba, wa7ed a3tebra nefs ekhouy. Ilsalfa mu qa9eb ou tara ilzawaj mu le3ba, I have to choose the right guy. The guy I want to spend my whole life with, I don't see my self with Khaled at all. He's not my type! He's my brother. "

Fara7: " Ya enta ya type, sheno type-ech? "

Me: " I don't know. "

Mesk: " Bes ma t7eson etha Khaled proposed and Lulu rejected him ra7 e9er mashakel bel3ayla? Ye3ni Khalte ra7 etgoul shfeh weldi? Why did she reject him? Ou suwalif ya3ni. "

Me: " I don't know walla. "

Fara7: " 3ad khalte 3endaha kelish wela weldy, abaih a7es bet9er salfa! "

Mesk: " Uff 7ada. "

Me: " Shfekum ga3den etfakrun chethe? He's not going to propose, ou ba3dain i9er khair 3ala ma nekbar ou endish jam3a yemken eshofla bent menak ou i7ebha ou yensani. "

Fara7: " Ohh 3ad Khaled lay7anech. "

Mesk laughed " Uff! "

" Please 3ady etghayroun elmawthou3? " I said.

Mesk: " Ee afa 3alaich en'3ayer elmawthou3 laish man'3ayra. "

Fara7: " Ela Lwailwa bas2elich. "

Me: " Mmmm? "

Fara7: " Hathe rfejtich bent Al-****** "

Me: " Ee Jenna, shfeha? "

Fara7: " Ekhoha shmel7a, shkubra? "

Me: " Kuberna! "

Fara7: " 9ij? Ya7laila "

Me: " Eeh. "

Fara7: " Maykalem? "

Wayhe gam ege6 alwan.

" Wana shdarane. " I said.

Fara7: " Way eyanen eyanen! Enzain Lwailwa shda3wa ana your cousin, kalmay ekhta golelaha ekhoch ma yabe ekalem? Choud e9er ne9eb. "

Ok? Walah el3athem I'm going to explode any second now, brou7y akraha ham etye ou itgoul chethe? 3aib walah 3aib.

Me: " Enshala ma agoulaha ukhoch yabe ekalem wela la. "

Fara7: " Way 3athab hal 9bay, shino thegel ou ma ya36e wayh! Ele ekalemha khara feha sheno ma7'6o6a wedy ashofha hal chalba wagom a6eg'ha 6ag, inshala yet'haweshon ou efeloun elyoum gabel bacher 3ashan ayeeb rasa. "

9ij walah?

Lulu.. CALM DOWN!

Stay calm, stay calm.

UGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Me: " Haw wintay shaku fehom? Wa3alaya teg3iden etda3en 3ala elbnaya wentay mat3arfenha. Alah ekhalehum 7ag ba3ath! "

Fara7: " Ya3ne et3arfenha ha? Akhaf entay Lwailo. "

Me: " Ha-a? Abaih shaku, inshala ma akalma a9lan wai3 jaikar. "

Fara7 laughed " Shfech shfech, adry ena mu entay at'3ashmar! Lo entay chan defantich walah. "

Wayed et'6a7ek Fara7 mashala 3alaiha, I didn't lose my temper yet.

Me: " Inzain bes khala9 chub. "

Khaled came.

Khaled: " Ilsalam. "

All of us replied " Wa3alaikum elsalam. "

Fara7: " Khaloud bada3t zegayer bessek! "

Khaled: " Elzigara hathe ele ba7thefha 7ag ele eb bali. "

Fara7: " Ou minu eb balek? "

He laughed.

Khaled: " Walak Far7o fe nas 8atheni. "

Fara7: " Laysh? "

Khaled: " Uhma 3abalhom ene bakhalehom, ya7sebon ena entehaina ma daraw;) "

Fara7: " Shenu ya3ni? "

Khaled: " Ya3ne elwa3ad gedam ou beshofon. "

He was giving me those shitty stares!

Fara7: " Yuma menek. "

Laf 3alay.

Khaled: " Lulu shlonech? "

" Tamam. Yala ana lazim agoum barou7 elshalaih " I replied.

Khaled said sarcasticlly: " Laish 3ala wayn? "

" 7al8eti eb tabdi now. " I said

Khaled: " 7alqitich? Aha. "

Mesk: " Way Lulu shoufay ele3ada ye3ni. "

Me: " La magder ele3ada elsa3a 5 akon nayma. "

Khaled: " 8a9dich et9e3en 3alba7ar. "

Me: " Na3am Khaled? Shfek ga6 wayhek eb kelshay? Khala9 fech yer7am umek fech mat7es nefsik lazga? Bes khala9! "

Khaled: " Ma et7amlain '3ashmara? "

Me: " La ma at7amal. "

Khaled: " Shda3wa 3alaich ma3araftech yal dalou3a ya 7alema. "

Me: " Wayed et'tha7ek mashala 3alaik. "

Fara7: " HEY ENTAW, Shfekom!!!! "

Me: " Shdarany 3ana hal '6areef. "

Khaled: " Ro7ay bes rou7ay la t6ofich 7al8etich. "

Me: " Ee adry eny barou7. " 

And I went inside shalaihna. I was chatting with Wahab on BBM, and I tweeted " Thanks for ruining my day:) #nitm "

Wahab: " PING!!! "

" PING!!! "

" PING!!! "

" PING!!! "

" Who ruined your day? "

Me: " Khaled:) "

Wahab: " Shsawa ba3ed? And why didn't you tell me? "

I told him what Khaled did.

Wahab: " Uhwa shyabi? Uhwa shaku khara 3alaih, walah il3athem lo bedy chan gemt ou 6agaita. Ou Lulu laysh ma gelteli 7azat'ha? Ana akher men ya3lam? "

Me: " Ye3ni Wahab mu muhem elmawthou3 3ashan agoulek eyah. "

Wahab: " Mu muhem 3endich, bes muhim 3endy! Lulu metsaw3eba shenu ya3ne he's trying to take you away from me? "

Me: " Ma yegder! "

Wahab: " Bas2elich su2al o jawbeni. "

Me: " Sure. "

Wahab: " Lo ana bent khalte tsawe nafs ele Khaled esaweh ou agoulech it's not a big deal, mu muhim! Et7ebny shinu ya3ne, she wants to marry me shinu ya3ne. Bl6agag kaifha, ou akhesh 3anech elashya2 ele etgoulha, terthain? "

Me: " La' 6ab3an! "

Wahab: " Khala9 3ayal, gabel la etsawen ayshay 7e6ay nafsich eb mukane o takhayelai shenu bekoun shi3orech. "

Me: " Wahab la tkaber elsalfa khala9 fahamt wala. "

Wahab: " Mu ga3ed akaber elsalfa Lulu! "

Me: " Ok. "

Wahab: " La tnafsen! "

Me: " Ma nafast. "

Wahab: " 7abeby? "

Me: " Mm? "

Wahab: " 7alat elm3a9ben, I'm sorry walah! Bes shway narfazteny. "

Me: " Ma sawait shey Wahab! "

Wahab: " Adre, bes lazim itgolele shi9er ma3a Khaled. Lulu I'm your husband, ou hal ashya2 et'hemny! "

Me: " Hmm husband? x_x "

Wahab: " Yup, entay zoujti 7abebty kaify.  "

Me: " x_x "

Wahab: " Khala9 baba la net'hawash 3ashan hal khara, ou etha 9ar ay shay gouleli. "

Me: " Enshala, wala ba3ed ebrou7y metnarfiza men Fara7. "

Wahab: " Your cousin? Shsawat ba3ed? "

Me: " Maly khelg agoul elsalfa ou an8ath again. "

Wahab: " Wainch baba? "

Me: " Belshalaih. "

Wahab: " Agder ashoufich? "

Me: " Madri Khaled mawjuud. "

Wahab: " Khara eb hal Khaled zain! Inzain can I call you? "

Me: " La Wahab, we already discussed this, ma naby calls. "

Wahab: " Le meta ya3ne ma nabe calls? "

Me: " Madry, Wahab please saker hal salfa. "

Wahab: " Inzain aby ashufich 3ala ela8al. "

Me: " Ilfayer shayefni Wahab "

Wahab: " Ma noulah ya3ne? "

Me: " Imbala x_x "

Wahab: " Inzain come shalaihna ou goulay enech betru7en 7ag Jenna. "

Me: "  Wetha Khaled gal shay? "

Wahab: " Etha gal shay ou 7anach ena beyey weyach 3a9bay ou goulay enech mentay yaya. "

Me: " Ok. "

I know ena calls ahwan men eny ashoufa ou ag3ad weyah, bes ye3ni hathe mu awal mara ashoufa. I don't know how to explain this, bes I'm not satisfied with the " calling him " thing. Awel shay I know I'll be addicted to his voice and I want to call him everyday/night.Thany shay it's the main reason shloun ele ekalmun ahalhum echekunhum ou i9er suwalif.  

Re7t bara and Khaled wasn't there ashwa. On the way my heart was beating so fast!
I wasn't scared, I was kinda nervous. I reached Wahabi's chalet.

Wahab: " Hala belzain! Hala bele makheth '3ala elgalb kela, hala bele te7eba kel asbaby "

I was blushing " Hi. "

Wahab: " Emshay khal neg3ad. "

Me: " Yalah. "

We sat on a couch ele et9er chenha dairofa, 3araftuha? Ele tet7arak.

Wahab: " So, Fara7 shemsawetlich? "

Eshta6ait shway and I was imitating " Abaih Wahab tekhayal she didn't stop talking about you, way abaih Wahab eyanen abaih Lulu tukfain ask his sister Wahab yabe ekalem? Abaih Wahab ekalem? Way eyanen a7eba, way cute abaih "

Wahab: " Chan geltelaha ena I'm single ou ma 3indy a7ad ou abe akalem. "

" 9ij walah? " I replied.

Wahab laughed: " Eeh ba3ed shenu hatha el9ij. "

Me: " Ok. "

Ou 6angart, I know that he's kidding. Bes kaifi 3a9abt!

Wahab: " Inzain golele 7elwa? "

Me: " La tlawi3 elchabd, bethab6 nefsik. "

Wahab: " La7tha la7tha, nefsy? 3ayal aked mazyona. "

Me: " Aha. "

Wahab: " Lulu? "

Me: " Na3am? "

Wahab: " Luluuuu."

Me: " Shtaby? "

Wahab: " Shfech em3a9ba? "

Me: " Mu m3a9ba a9lan ana shaku fekum bel 6agag. "

He laughed " A6afrech! "

Me: " Hahahahahaha. "

He held my hand, awal ma mesak'ha negazt men elkhar3a ou wakhart edi ebsera 3ala asas eni em3a9ba.

Wahab: " Etgharen? "

Me: " Hahahahah abaih shaku? "

Wahab held my hand again, I melted.

" Tgharen? " He asked again.

Me: " Madry. "

Wahab came closer and whispered " Lulu, tgharen? "

Me: " Mn zenek 3ashan aghar? "

Wahab laughed " Etgharen? "

Me: " La2. "

Wahab: " 3ayal khala9 thab6ely Fara7. "

Me: " Mabi. "

Wahab: " Inzain laish? "

Me: " Kaifi. "

Wahab: " La' lazim fe sibab. "

Me: " Eeh "

Wahab: " Eeh sheno? "

Me: " 3ala elsu2al ele msa3. "

I felt his happiness " Itgharen? "

I wasn't looking at him.

Me: " Hahaha, yimken. "

Wahab: " Lulu 6al3eny, 7e6ay 3ainech eb 3aini. "

I looked at him.

Wahab: " Etgharen 3alay? "

Me: " Ee ee iff! "

Wahab: " Shkether? "

Me: " Wai3 Wahab madry wayed. "

Mu met3awda 3ala elkalam ele chethy AT ALL, I don't know how to respond.

Wahab: " A7eb ele egharuun. "

I smiled ou 6ala3t ta7at.

Wahab lifted up my chin " Tadren eny a7ebich 9a7? "

Me: " Wahab lazim amshy. "

He laughed, he knows eny mesta7ya ou I'm not used to ' elkalam el7ilu ' so he excused me.

Wahab: " Tara mu kelmara ba6awefha ha. "

Me: " Eh eh ok. "

Wahab: " Inzain mara7 tlemeny gabel latrou7en? "

Me: " Wahaaaaaab. "

Wahab: " Khala9 khala9, I'm sorry. "

Me: " 3afya. "

Wahab: " Yala awal ma to9len golele ok? "

Me: " Inshalah. "

Wahab: " Take care. "

Me: " I will. "

Chapter 11

I didn't know what to say, 7asait rely mu shaylatni min elwanasa. 7asait el7achy 6ale3 mn galba 7ail, a7es 3aib 3alay etha I rejected him again. Walla 3aib!

" Wahab wala madri shagoulek. " I relpied

Wahab: " Tabene? "

I giggled.

Wahab: " Lulu tabene 7agech? 7agich ebrou7ech, bes entay! "

I smiled ou nazalt rasi

He screamed " LULU!!!! "

Rifa3t rasy

He smiled and whispered " Tabene 7agech? "

" Eeh " I replied.

Wahab: " Eeh shenu? "

Me: " Eeh hatha "

Wahab: " Hatha sheno baba? "

Me: " Mmm. "

Wahab: " Lulu, say it! Make my day. Well you already did, bes please say it! "

Me: "  I want you... "

Wahab: " Eeh? "

Me: " To be mine. "

Wayhey belthab6 kan 6oma6a.

Wahab screamed " AAAAAAAAKHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! "

" Wahaaab! " I said.

" 3youn Wahab? Rou7a? Galba? Ya ba3ad kel Wahab entay. Amray baba amray? " he replied.

I giggled shyly " la t9arekh. "

He laughed " Min 3youne. "

He was staring at me o ga3ed yeth7ak.

Me: " Shfeek et6ale3ny? "

" Ana 7alman? " he relpied.

" Laish? " I said.

" I feel like I'm still dreaming, I can't believe it. Walah el3athem mu gader a9adig ena you're finally mine, la Khaled wala ghair Khaled yegdar yakhthech meni sam3a? " He said.

Me: " Enshalah. "

He came closer, ana ekhtara3t!

Wahab laughed while saying " Shfeech shfeech? Yuba mane msawelich shay. "

I laughed " Khara3tny. "

Wahab: " Ana shgaylich msa3? Mara7 asawelich wela shay ela after we get married enshalah, goulay enshalah! "

Me: " Enshalah. "

Wahab: " Barou7 a9aly! "

Me: " Shet9aly hal 7azza? "

Wahab: " Ba9aly 3ashan ashker raby ena ele eb baly 9ar o ena you're finally mine, basjid sajdat sheker! Barou7 akhtem elqur'an walah! "

I laughed.

Wahab: " Ya zeen eltha7ka walah. "

" Wahab baaaass " I said shyly.

He came closer and whispered in my ears " You're beautiful! "

3a6aita thahry " Lazim ared elshalaih "

Wahab: " Taw elnass! "

Me: " I have to go back before they wake up, ou 7ade day5a. "

Wahab: " Khala9 7abebe, emshay awa9lech! "

Me: " La Wahab, hathe 7azat Khaled yeg3ad 3end elbalcony chena neser ykhiz eshouf minu raye7 o minu yay, mali khelg suwalif. "

Wahab: " Mara7 akhalech etriden brou7ech! "

Me: " 3ady wala 6la3at elshams, mafe shay enshalah! "

" Shrayech etnamen 3endy? " He said sarcastically.

Me: " Wahaaaaaaaaab "

He gave me that cute innocent puppy face " Atghashmar "

Me: " Yala wala lazim arou7! "

Wahab: " Ok ana ba7awel a6el 3alaich men el balcony o please awal ma to9len gouleli "

Me: " Inshalah "

I went back to elshalaih and I texted Wahab, I told him ena wi9alt. Wana ray7a shalaihna wela Khaled jedami, I tried to not look at him.

Khaled: " LULU! "

Me: " Walain " ou kamalt 6irejy.

He pulled " GA3ED A7ACHECH! "

Me: " La tjesny wakher!! "

Khaled: " MIN WAIN YAYA HAL 7AZA? MIN WAIN YAYA HA?! "

Me: " Went shaku min wain yaya? "

Khaled: " Yaya men 3end hal chalb ha? "

Me: " Law sama7t la tghale6 3ala el9bay! "

Khaled: " O ba3ad ma ter'6ain 3alaih ha? "

He was screaming!

Me: " Khaled la t9arekh, naymen elawadem! "

Khaled: " La laish? Khalhom yesmi3on! Ma taben e3arfon futha7yech ma3a hal ***** ? "

Me: " KHALED LA TSEBA!!!! "

Khaled: " O ba3ad gumna en3a9eb ha! Bas entay 3abalech ene bakhalekom et'hanon eb ba3ath? " he laughed an evil laugh " MASKENA! "

I was staring at him, I didn't know what to say. I wanted to cry!

Khaled pulled me closer to his face, 7asait chena he's going to kiss me.

I pushed him " WAKHER!!! "

He pulled me back again " Ana a7ebich, entay 7agi ana.. Sam3a? 7AGY EBRO7Y! Tadren sheno ya3ne LO SHENO ma7ad eb yakhthech meni? "

His face kan lazig eb mine, I was trying to push him bes he's too strong!

I started crying " WAKHER 3ANY WAKHER!!!! "

Khaled: " Oshh oshh la tabchen fetha7tena!!!!! "

I started screaming " WAKHEEEEEEEER 3AAAANYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! "

Khaled: " EKLAY KHARACH LA T9ARKHEEEEEN!!! "

Me: " HEDNY WAKHER 3ANY!!!! "

Mesk came " SHFEKOM ENTAW SHFEKOM!? "

Khaled: " MASHY YA LULU WALAH MASHY ANA A3ALMECH! "

Mesk: " Shfeek enta elthany ga3ed et9arekh 3ala elbnaya? "

Khaled: " Wentay shaku! "

And he walked away.

Mesk hugged me while saying " Shfeech ma3a Khaled? Sh9ayer? "

Me: " Madri 3ana, maynoun! "

Mesk: " Ee sh9ayer? "

Me: " Kent ga3da atmasha 3ala elba7ar o ana rada ohwa kan bwayhe, o kan 3abala eni kent 3end Wahab okho Jenna my friend! He thinks that I'm in a relationship with him, aw fe shay baina. "

Mesk: " O 9ij 3ad? "

Me: " LA 6AB3AN! "

Mesk: " 3ayal shfeh em9amem? "

Me: " Shdarane 3ana el7emdelah welsheker "

Mesk: " Ma 3alaich mena, khaleh ewaly. "

Me: " Ee 7ada "

Mesk: " So Wahab ekho rifejtich, el7ilu? "

Me: " Mu 7ilu 3ady. "

Mesk: " Bel3aks walah eyanen! Kel elbanat mayten 3alaih, ya ba5t ele ekalemha walah! 3ad kelmen egoul ena e7eb. "

Ertifa3 jawi 7ail.

Me: " Shda3wa mayten 3alaih, mu min zeena ye3ni! "

Mesk laughed " Ma 3alaina menhum, entay el7en go take a shower o namay! O Khalod khaleh 3alay! "

I hugged her o dakhalt elshalaih.

7abait'ha, she's so sweet! Ma tiwa8a3t'ha chethy.

I took a shower, and I laid on my bed.

I started thinking.

Sheno besawi Khaled?

I know ena ehwa em9arga3 wayed, yegder esawi ay shay.

Yemken erou7 e6eg Wahab?

La la, maysaweha! Ma yetjara2 a9lan.

3ayal egoul 7ag Ahmed?

He already did o Ahmed ma 9adegah!

Bad thoughts started crossing my mind ye3ni " thameri " ga3ed e2anebny.

I don't know what to do!

I want him, I want him so bad!

Bes o ahaly?

Ughh!

Alah yaster.

Bes fe bright side bel mawthou3..

Wahab is finally mine, I mean he's Wahab"ii"..

I love him. I can't wait to tell Fayo what happened.

Ah, I'm the happiest person alive walah.

Chapter 10

I was really shocked. Shelsalfa? O laish ga3id igouli chethy?

I replied " Wahab fahemny shelsalfa? Shfeek? "

Wahab: " Lulu la teg3iden testa3b6ain please, wtha7at elsalfa! I finally knew the reason why you rejected me, its not about your family, o please la trag3en. "

Me: " Wahab, please mu ga3da afham walah.. Enta same3 3ani shay? Aw a7ad gayelek shay? "

Wahab: " Ilyoum Dhari was talking to us bel group o he told us ena now ra7 ya6leb McDonald's ga3ad igoul ana o 7abebty Lulu 6alben nafs elshay, a7ebha walah o ga3ad ekharbe6 bel7achy. O entay 7esbalech ana ma adri? Min elgifts ele eyeblich eyahom o e7achech eb muwathe3 bel shalaih, Lulu.. Please khala9 stop lying! "

What the fuck!!

Hal yahel ye6la3 mena chethe?

" Dhary shaku bel mawthou3? A9lan ma baine o baina shay, o ohwa 3endi MSN bas chethe o elyom he asked me sheno eb tet3ashain o geltla ba6leb min McDonald's o he asked me sheno eb ta6leben o radait 3alaih o 3igub gal bya6leb nafsi o yeg3ad igole a7ebich o ana em6ansheta, la yeg3ad e2alif 7achy. Maly 3elaqa feeh kelish, o the reason I rejected you 9ij 3ashan my family mu 3ashan hal yahel, Wahab tara ana mu chethe, hatha mu nethami! " I said.

Wahab: " 3ayal laish ga3ed egoul chethe? "

Me: " Wana shdarani 3ana! "

Wahab: " I'm so sorry Lulu, elmafrouth ayey at2akad menich gabel la a7kum 3alaich.. I'm really sorry I hope you forgive me! "

Me: " Its okay "

Wahab: " Walah min 9ijy I'm so sorry, walah ana 7mar adry "

Me: " La Wahab la tgoul 3an nafsik chethe, its okay kelena enghale6 "

Wahab: " Thanks for understanding "

Me: " You're welcome. "

Wahab: " Lulu, 6alabtich. "

Me: " 3a6aitek? "

Wahab: " Please 3ady etkhaleny 3endich ib bbm? "

Me: " I don't want to lose you again, aked 3ady! "

Wahab: " Wait wait, minu galech ena you lost me? "

Me: " Madry Wahab.. "

Wahab: " Lulu you didn't lose me, o you'll never lose me inshalah "

Me: " Hmm madry, ye3ni a7es 3ugib ele 9ar baina elwath3 be9er awkward."

Wahab: " Hmm, la shaku. "

Me: " Good. "

Wahab: " So you're going to Bnaider this weekend? "

Me: " I don't know. Maybe, and you? "

Wahab: " Akeed barou7, come? "

Me: " Inshalah, I'll try. "

Kamalna baje elsbou3, Wahab and I radaina ta8reban nefs awal. Bas still a7es ena fe something, chena shayel eb kha6ra. I know that he's trying his best to act normal but he can't!
I always try to keep the conversation alive, awel lama kena insolef o ana a7e6 akher shay emotion ohwa erid esolef. It's not the same now and I don't blame him, lo ohwa emsawy el7araka feni chan lo sheno ma arid akalma.

I talked to my mother, I told her ena I want to go to Bnaider and she said yes.

Fay is not coming this weekend, she has a wedding on friday, so I packed my things and I told Wahab that I was going to Bnaider.

He's not that excited.

And again...

I DON'T BLAME HIM!

Bes it kills, remembring the way he used to talk to me..

It's my fault, I have to take the responsibility for my actions, elmafrouth a7med rabi ena ohwa now 3indy ib my contacts list, a9lan zain mena ga3id i7acheny chithy!

Me: " Wahab tadre sheno widy? "

Wahab: " Hmm sheno? "

Me: " Ag3ad weyak elfayer on the balcony nefs hathek elmara "

Wahab: " We had a good time. "

Me: " Eeh 7ada, khansaweha again. "

Wahab: " Inshalah, etha fethait insaweha "

Me: " Ma astahel etfathy nafsek 3ashani? "

Wahab: " Testahlain el6eeb walah. "

Me: " Matga9er "

Wahab: " So wainech now? "

Me: " I'm on my way "

Wahab: " Take care, weya minu ray7a? "

Me: " Will do. Ilsayeg "

Wahab: " Deray balech "

Me: " Inshalah, wenta wainek? "

Wahab: "  Ga3ed belshalaih "

Me: " Bro7ek? "

Wahab: "  Eeh "

Me: " Mmm "

Wahab: " :D "

Me: " Jenna mara7 etyey? "

Wahab: " I don't think so. "

Me: " Oh laish? "

Wahab: " She has a exam on sunday "

Me: " Aha "

We9alt elshalaih. Khaled, Mesk and Farah were there, ekhh! I asked my driver to park infront of shalaihna 3ashan ma ashofhom, maly khelg!

I wish he knew that I came to Bnaider bes 3alashan ashoufa. I wish he knew how much I care for him.

Ga3adt belshalaih 6oul elyoum, watching tv.

Khaled kel digega emur 9oub shalaihna o he talks loudly so I can hear him.

I'm ignoring!

Ilshay elwa7ed ele emkhare3eny bel mawthou3 ena eldenya dawara. What goes around comes back around!

Akhaf eye elyoum ele ana arketh wara Khaled o ohwa ma yabeni, wayed ga3da afaker eb negative things. I don't know why! I think elshay ele ga3id i9er fene now shay 'nafsy'

I fell asleep on the couch and I woke up around 4 am.

Wahab didn't text me. But unfortunately Khaled did:)

" Nizlay we need to talk. "

Hatha lail7en em9amem ena he wants to talk to me?

" Keep dreaming " I replied.

I tweeted " Why am I awake? "

Wahab retweeted my tweet.

I decided to BBM him, he retweeted my tweet for a reason!

" Laish mo nayem? " I said

Wahab: " I'm trying to find some answers. "

Me: " For what? "

Wahab: " For some questions. "

Me: " What questions? "

Wahab: " I don't know, fe wayed questions. "

Me: " Eh, questions like what? "

Wahab: " Madri, never mind. So what are you doing? "

Me: " Nothing, watching tv. "

Wahab: " What are you watching? "

Me: " 90120. "

Wahab: " Mm emtab3eta? "

Me: " No, bes ma3indy sheghel ghaira. "

Wahab: " Tegderen etyen shalaihna? "

Ahhh, finally!!!!!!

Me: " Ashouf etha my cousins naymen. "

Wahab: " Tara etha ma taben 3ady, I'm not forcing you. "

" Adre, I want to come. " I replied

I'm sure ena Khaled is sleeping, la2ana lo he's not chan he texted me back aw he called aw sawa ay shay.

I went to Wahab's shalaih.

Wahab: " Hey "

Me: " Hello "

He smiled.

I don't know why, but smiles attract me SO MUCH!

I laughed.

Wahab: " Shely etha7ek? "

Me: " Madri "

Wahab: " Emshay khal neg3ad bel balcony. "

Me: " Yalah "

Wahab: " Laish mu labsa 3adil? Ana labes elkabat kela o bardan. "

I think he still cares.

Me: " Madri belshalaih kan 7ar. "

Wahab: " Wait ayeblich a jacket men my jackets o basawelich hot chocolate, bard 3alaich! "

I smiled " I'll help. "

He laughed " Mu ta7regena. "

" Hey tara a3arif. " I said while going inside elshalaih

He brought me a jacket, lebasta. O ga3adna ensawi el hot chocolate.

By mistake edi 7ashat elcup o 6a7 3ala eed Wahab!

Wahab: "  A77 a77 a7777! "

Me: " A7777, ambaih Wahab I'm so sorry. Ma kan 8a9di "

Wahab: "  A77, la 3adi 3adi.. Please Lulu open the fridge o yebeli thalj "

Me: " Okay. "

Kent metwaga.

I brought ice o 7a6aita on his hand.

" Wahab I'm so sorry, walah ma kan 8a9di. " I said

Wahab: " Its okay 3adi, adre ena ma kan qa9dich "

Me: "  Wait bayeblik 67en "

Wahab laughed " 67en? "

Me: " Eeh 7ada zain 7ag el7roug. "

Wahab: " Okay "

I held his hand 3ashan ba7e6la 67en, He was staring at me o ana 7adi meshta6a.

Me: " Wahab e3awrek 7ail? "

Wahab: " La 3ady. "

Me: " Wahab e7lef ena may3awrek 7ail? Wahab walah I'm so sorry. Walah el3athem I didn't mean it walah. "

He laughed " Walah may3awerni wayed, 7a9al khair. "

Me: " Akeed? "

Wahab: " Akedain. "

I smiled, estaw3abt eni lail7en maska eda.. Chan ahedha!

Wahab: " Lulu, can I ask you a question? "

Me: " One of the questions ele you were thinking of mesa3? "

He laughed " Yeah. "

" Sure, ask. " I replied

Wahab: " Lulu, laish ana kent a7es ena ele baina shu3or mutabadal, ena you care about me methel ma I care about you? O lemma I told you 3an my feelings I expected a different reaction, kelish ma tewa8a3t ena chethe radich! "

Me: "  Wahab walah el3athem ena I care about you, you don't know shkether! Sheno kent metwaqe3 my reaction? "

Wahab: " Mm.. Madri! "

Me: "  Wahab goul kel ele eb kha6rek. "

Wahab: " Ma tiz3elen? "

Me: " Sure, 7ata ent ma tiz3al men kalamy? "

Wahab: " A9lan ana agdar az3al 3alaich? "

I smiled shyly.

Wahab: " Kent metwa8e3 ena ra7 enkon together ya3ni.. "

Me: " Ohh. "

Wahab: " I'm sorry! "

Me: " Ana ele mafrouth at2asaf mu enta, you didn't do anything wrong! Wahab I really want to be with you bes.. "

He interrupted me " Ha? You want sheno? "

I giggled " Khalny akamel "

He smiled " Kamlay baba kamlay! "

Me: " Wahab, ana khayfa. "

Wahab: " Khayfa men sheno? "

Me: " Ya3ne wayed marat afkar mu zaina etyeli, ya3ne ena etha 9irna together yemken net'hawash o be3dain ra7 yentehe kel ele baina. Mara7 negdar en9er friends wala shay! Ana khayfa etha I did this be3dain I'll lose you forever, khayfa mn ahaly.. Khayfa mn nehayat hal shay ele basaweh, wala 3omre tkhayalt ene ra7 akalem, not this year! "

Wahab: " Etha t'hawashna we'll discuss the problem and we'll solve it together, laish teg3den etfakren chethe? Lulu ana a7ebich, fe 3umrich sheftay wa7ed e7eb wa7da men galba o he leaves her 3ashan a stupid fight? Hathola ele they leave ele e7ebonhom 3ashan stupid fights may7bon men galb, I already told you inshala you won't lose me, Lulu ana mara7 ajesich wala ra7 asawelich ay shay ghala6, ana mara7 asawy ela ele yarthech o eray7ech, o ana badish men elbab.. Lulu ana ga3ed afaker feech tafker mustaqbaly, mu ga3id arahiq 3ala afach aw shay, I'm done with this bullshit kel youm bnaya, I want a serious relationship, a9lan I never thought ena byoum men elayam ba7ebich o bat3alag feech chethe, mu belshalaih.. Mu rifejat ekhti! Ya3ne madre the whole thing kela 9ar faj2a, hatha shay mu bedy.. Salfat ene ana a7ebich hatha shay mu bedy, hatha galbe " He took a deep breath and continued " O galbi ekhtarich entay! I want you, I want you to be mine. A7EBICH! "

I'M SPEECHLESS!!!!!!!